Passing Time

I'm really enjoying my quiet time in the mornings...and on my days off.  I honestly never thought I'd get to this point in my college career, and yet here I am with only classes 2 days a week.  Granted I have to write 2 completely separate 20 page papers in the next few weeks just so I can graduate, but other than that I'm really enjoying it.

So now I'm sitting in our new Resource Room (that has nothing but tables and chairs - oh and a sink that I don't think is workable) just fooling around on the computer while I wait for class to start in 15 minutes.  In the meantime I'm trying to convince myself NOT to get something to eat out of the vending machine just because I actually have a couple dollars in my wallet.  I'm not really hungry either.  I had a big breakfast.  I'm bored and I have the munchies..and no, acknowledging that fact doesn't make it go away. I mean, I could tell myself that it will be okay to get something from the machine because I'll just do a Tai Bo workout tonight (this will make me feel so much better about my decision) - except that I won't go do a workout tonight.  I'll sit on my ass and play WoW after I get some homework done.

No, that's a lie.  I won't work on any homework tonight because I don't have class tomorrow.  I'll just go home and play WoW.  Isn't that kind of sad that I'm lying in my blog.  I mean, no one reads this but me so that's like I'm lying to myself...which I'm really good at doing but here I like to pretend I'm actually talking to people which means that (in my mind) I'm lying to someone....which I refuse to do.  Man, I'm lame.

Don't get me wrong.  I'm not addicted to it or anything (yeah I know...addicts say that....I can quit whenever I want too!!!).  It doesn't rule my life.  I can actually do other things when they need doing.  I also don't ignore my son or anything else.  The thing is, quite frankly, I enjoy playing.  I just don't play all day and night.  I'm usually asleep by midnight and if I have something else to do, I do it.

Here's what will happen.  I'll play every day for a couple of weeks and then I'll get it out of my system and stop playing for 4 or 5 months.  Eventually I'll start playing again and repeat the cycle.  If I could make myself vomit, I'd probably be bulimic.

Okay, time to go to class.  I think that's enough rambling for one day.