It's almost done

I have 19 days left until graduation....but I'm so exhausted that I just don't care.  I really feel bad for not keeping my multitude of fans updated on my life but you know how it is.  Hopefully things will be a little less hectic after graduation.

So here's a bit of an update...sorry it won't be much but I'm really exhausted and I still haven't studied for my exam tomorrow.

Softball season started again.  I know you're excited because I am too!  Grabbed my shirt today and it's a red shirt with dark blue letters.  Pictures will be posted as I get them.  The games start next Monday.

I turned in my Capstone project, all 24+ pages of it, today (two weeks early!) so I'm done with that class and I only have 2 presentations, another 20 page paper, 2 exams, and 2 finals left to do....but who's counting?

I've decided that I'm going to home school the leech next year and at the moment he's not exactly thrilled about it.  He's stuck on the (incorrect) fact that he'll never see his friends again.  My bird may be coming home this summer to spend the school year with me again, which means I'll home school him as well.  This paragraph will require a whole other blog post .... just not right now.

I must be more tired then I thought because I can't think of anything else that is even remotely important.  Give me 20 days and I'll fill you in again...lol?

Fat Tuesday!

Happy fat tuesday everyone.  Tomorrow's Lent...don't forget!

I should be working on homework, but I just need a moment to unwind after a long day.  I went to my new class today.  It was really interested.  Basic statistics with a biological twist to it.  Which is kinda funny, cause Biology and I don't get along lol.  Right after that class I met with Dr. A about starting my research for the Quantitative Biology class.  I've got to give him the yearly totals for pneumonia and influenza deaths in 122 U.S. cities since 1982.  I'll probably start on that tomorrow or Thursday. 

After that I went to physical therapy and while it was painful to start with, I could feel the loosening up of the muscle like I do every time I've been there so far.  Plus, the therapist assistant I got was omg sexy /drool lol.  I may have to bring them food one day as a thank you...but after I'm done, so I have an excuse to see them again ;)

Then I grabbed some sushi and ran to my MAA meeting (that's the mathematical association of america for those of you who don't know).  We discussed having a faculty lecture series this semester.  We're also going to watch the Pi vs E debate.  I'm pretty excited about that.

Then I ran home, dropped my bag, grabbed the leech and we drove up to the church for Mardi Gras!  It was a blast.  They made masks and then we had gumbo.  There was dancing and beads and so much smoke the fire department should have come lol.  The leech had a blast.  We still weren't done by 8:30 so we had to leave early. 

Now he's in bed asleep and I need to start working on my homework and studying for everything tomorrow.  We're pinning our initiates tomorrow so I've got to dress up and wear heels...woo...

I'll be so glad when this week is over.  Pssst...don't forget that Saturday is my birthday!

Delicioso!

Today felt like a weekend!

Snow snow everywhere. Blah! The leech's school was canceled, mine wasn't. So I set him up on WoW and braved the weather. Mind you, I was dressed up because our fraternity was pinning our initiates this evening. I got to my first class and while I was there I got an alert on my phone that the university canceled the classes for the rest of the day.

I came home and drove out to the store to pick up some supplies. Remember, I'm trying this whole new vegetarian thing. After grocery shopping I worked on some homework and realized that I could actually take a nap...so I did. It was a beautiful thing. Except that when I woke up, my hip started hurting and it was below zero in my room because I'd forgot to turn up my heater before I laid down lol.

Got up around 6 and went to fix dinner. It was an experience to say the least. Let me warn you, I'm not domestic at all. I'm only in the kitchen long enough to warm something up in the microwave usually. Tonight I actually had to mash avocados and peel the skin off of tomatoes and use 3 herbs! It was a lot of fun actually. And oh my goodness, it turned out delicious! Oh, right...I made bean nachos. I also forgot to take a picture of it for you. I'm sorry. I need to find some .. brioche (I think that's the name of the bread) so I can make this mushroom thing I want to try.

Now here's the pisser of the night. I fixed this gorgeous dinner and the leech freaked out and gagged when he saw it. He said it was from the smell. It smelled like limes to me. I'm not physical with my children at all but I really had to restrain myself from smacking him. I hate it immensely when children are disrespectful...especially mine.

I told him to try it. After all, I'd even bought our favorite (and expensive) organic root beer to drink with it! He took a nibble of a corn chip that didn't have anything on it, and proclaimed that it was nasty. Again, I had to restrain myself. I gave him ample opportunity to eat but he sat there crying crocodile tears until I took the food and his root beer away and told him to just go to bed then.

I have tons leftover for tomorrow. This makes me happy :) Oh, and I also had a root beer float for dessert!

So now, I'm going to tuck him in and then work on some homework before bed. Oh, and I know you were wondering about the history I had to write for Dr. B. I finished it last night and sent it off to him. Now I just need to work with Dr. A on my letter of intent. Hopefully I can get that done this weekend and have everything ready to send off on Monday!

I hope you're enjoying this lazy day as much as I am! :)

Guess What?!

Chicken butt haha!!

Ok, seriously though. I was pretty productive today. Rescheduled an appointment with my new landlord, added the new class, went to the doctor, ran to the store, had lunch with Victoria, went to the leech's basketball game, oh...and got a job interview with the government. Granted it's only a temporary job with the Census but I'll take it. I think it'll fit in nicely with my statistics hopes. Go me! :D

The doctor appointment went ... horrible I think. He gave me another round of anti-inflammatories and told me to do physical therapy 4 days a week for 4 weeks. He still insists it's just a pulled muscle. If this doesn't work, I'm going to eat him.

I've got a head cold that just won't go away either and I feel like I could sleep for a week. Ugh!!

Nerves

I'm sitting here and it's almost 8pm on a Monday. A lot's happened to me I guess.

My back has been killing me. I think I mentioned about 3 months ago that I finally went in to get it checked out? 3 months that included muscle relaxers, a hormone, and anti-inflammatories later...and my back still feels the same way. I'm worried about Scolosis. I'm worried about a lot of other things too. I'm going in tomorrow morning to see the doctor again and this time I'm not going to let them put me on any medication without running tests so I know what's wrong. I'm a little nervous because as outspoken as I am...I usually just smile and nod while at the doctor. I don't know why...I just do.

I'm thinking about my undergraduate research that I have to do next semester. Finally realized that I want to get my master's in statistics so I need some undergrad stuff that flows into a master's thesis. Had a nice talk with Dr. A today and he wants me to add one of his classes - yes I know it's a month into the semester already. Yes I know I already have 14 credit hours not counting the Graph Theory class that I'm sitting in on without getting a grade.

I've been assured that this class will prepare me to do research with him next semester. Also, we only meet for 4 weeks and it should be a fairly easy A. Lord knows I can use as many of those as I can get. So I go tomorrow to submit a late add form for this class.

Dr. A's also informed me that I need to do an internship this summer in biostatistics. I have to say it sounds positively amazing and I would love to be able to do something like this. There's just a few things I'm worried about. They want a copy of my transcript...I've got a few grades that aren't so hot. Granted I've retaken all of my math classes that I needed to and significantly raised those grades (from an F to a B+) but it still makes me nervous. I also need 2 letters of recommendation. I know Dr. B will give me one, but I don't know any other teacher well enough to ask. Maybe I'll ask Dr. F if he'd mind. I know he likes me.

Also, I have to make sure I don't lose my campus housing while I'm gone and I need to find somewhere to stick my son for 6-7 weeks.

If all of the above work out, I could either be in Boston, Atlanta, S. Florida, Pittsburgh, Washington, or North Carolina. I'm really cautiously excited about this.

I need to finish my statistics homework now and put the leech to bed. G'night all.

4am...yet again

So I'm going to try and sleep now. Tomorrow (today) is going to be nice. I get my godson for the night and Vic and I are going to just rent some movies and cook dinner and hang out at her house with the kids for NYE. Did I use too many 'ands'? Too bad. I should dig around in my cookbook and see if I can find something new to fix.

Going to see my sister for the first time in a couple of years in 14 days. I can't wait. Of course, classes start up again at the same time and I'm taking a 5 day weekend to go see her but oh well. I need to see my baby sister and my girls.

I really have nothing else to say right now. I'm thinking of creating another blog for my Star Wars characters. I post journal entries for them on a forum but I think it'd be fun to stick them in a real blog. Plus that way you can read all the exciting stuff that's going on in the game... lol.

Ok, I've deflected enough. I'm going to bed.

PS. today was pretty good...aside from my bowels deciding that I was going to be sick for a few hours.

Apathetic much?

Just so you know, the last post wasn't anything other than me needing to let go of some stuff. This time of year is always bad for me, and it has been for a long time. I lost my best friend almost 11 years ago and the sadness always starts the last couple of days of December. I try not to dwell. I try to distract myself with other things. I try to ignore how I feel...just for a few days. It never works. I always end up crying into my pillow for hours for no apparent reason. I know why...I just don't like to talk about it. But that's why we have the internet right?

Having this screen in front of me allows me to spill my deepest darkest secrets without fear or worry, because frankly...no one reads this but me anyway. I can be anyone I want to and you'll never know. Just don't get me alone in a room, I might disappoint you. Blah blah blah, boo hoo. Yes I know I'm getting all weepy. So what. Trouble is, it gets worse as I get older. My hot flashes are getting harder to deal with. I'm having some really difficult times sleeping (thankfully the only thing I have to get up for is church on sundays - not looking forward to classes starting again...I wonder if that will help me get back on my proper schedule?).

Maybe I shouldn't worry. Maybe I should just let everything be. There's some lyrics of a song that Bob sent me a long time ago. "Worrying is about as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum."



Here's the Yoda version of it...just cause I'm a nerd like that



I did go to bed by 9ish last night...and then woke up at 1:30am *sigh*. I ate a little, played some Star Wars, watched a comedy special with Robin Williams...he's not as funny as he used to be. It just seems like his humor has gone down the toilet...or maybe I'm not used to seeing him do stand up and he's always been like that? Not that I have any problem with toilet humor, he just doesn't do it well.

I'm supposed to go grocery shopping with Victoria tomorrow....I don't really see myself getting up at any kind of decent hour to do that actually. Thankfully I bought some micro meals for the leech to warm up so I don't have to cook. Which really is kinda sad because I pulled out some ground turkey the other day to make some tacos and I've really been looking forward to it.

I really need to work on the whole 'letting go' thing.

Merry Hogswatch

It's after 4:30am and I'm still not asleep. I told the leech he could wake me up at 10...ugh...on top of, I found one present that didn't get wrapped. I should do that quickly.

I heart this band...you should heart it too.

Done...but not quite!

Presents are wrapped woooo! I did it while the leech was outside playing cause I'm sneaky like that. He's still contagious so he'll be staying home tonight and not joining me for service. Which makes me a little sad because Victoria won't be here either :( .

Sent Bob the email...everything's good. Tho I think I'm over thinking things again as usual lol. Thankfully he'll tell me so and everything will go back to normal. I blame the hormones....which btw, I'm on day 4 and no major side effects still! Very glad my face hasn't decided to break out again.

I did my core workout last night but skipped the Tai Chi...it was like after 4am when I finally got to the first part of my workout and I was exhausted. Sadly I couldn't fall asleep till almost 6:30 :/ . Gonna try and get to bed a little early tonight. Maybe make the leech some pancakes for breakfast tomorrow. Careful, the world might stop spinning if I do it lol!

Procrastination!!!!

I do this every year. I wait until Christmas Eve to wrap the presents...and then I end up staying up way too late which means I sleep longer and make the kids wait to wake me up lol. I'm so evil. Thankfully they understand and are happy with their stockings. Plus we compromise. They're not allowed to wake me up before 9am.

I'm exhausted. I haven't done my workout. I ate 5 chocolate covered cherries today. I'm sitting here listening to music and trolling some forums. I'm also hoping that the leech will feel better by xmas. Oh, right...he's got bronchitis. We were at the doctor's office today. 4 days of antibiotics and steroids. He's actually been quiet tonight. No coughing. I hope that means he's getting better. Poor thing has been coughing painfully for the last month. Maybe I'll make my stuffed mushrooms and oreo pie tomorrow to keep me busy. I won't be able to go to Rachel's house for xmas dinner but hopefully the leech'll be feeling better the day after and we can go then. I miss my extra kids!

So here's a thought. I was playing SWG today and made a new RP friend. The role play wandered the way it wanted and my character ended up on his character's ship for a little virtual sin-making. Not that I have a problem with that...but, well it's gotten me thinking. I've never been in any intimate RP situation with anyone but Bob the Bird, and well...I know Bob and I aren't together but..it seems weird to be doing something like that with someone else. Granted I don't go all out and into deep details with it. I'm pretty quick to fade to black when it seems like that's the path the RP will take. Still tho, it almost feels like I'm cheating on Bob, which is right silly I know.

At the same time...I don't want to limit my RP just because I feel like that. I have other characters that aren't tied intimately to any of Bob's and if I limit them in any way, then I feel like I might be missing out on something. There's just got to be a way to go about this without hurting any feelings or making anyone jealous/upset. Not that he would be...hell, I don't even know how he feels anymore. Maybe I should ask him...except that I don't want him to think we're having one of those conversations after all these years. I happen to enjoy our friendship and things get complicated and uncomfortable when you start dragging up old feelings and stuff.

On the other hand...I am on hormones right now so it's quite possible that I'm just over thinking all this and he'd tell me I was being silly. Maybe I'll send him an email since he's away on xmas vacation.

Then after that I'm gonna do my work out and go to bed. I promise!!! :D

I've been in a writing mood lately. I wrote a couple of journal entries for a character I role play in Star Wars Galaxies. I think they came out pretty good. Now I'm here...not sure for what, nothing really exciting has happened.

I went to church tonight for solstice service. It was really nice and intimate as there was roughly only 20ish people there for the service. Poor Aidan slept through the entire thing - I gave him a dose of Nyquil earlier. I got a little teary during one of the songs...I blame the hormones tho.

Speaking of hormones. I started taking that hormone pack the doc put me on for my back. Today was the first day and I took 6 pills. It was kinda weird, I have to say. I didn't really notice any change in my personality. No mood swings or general crabbiness. I did send a friend request to a guy who I used to be friends with. We haven't been friends in almost a year but were actually talking nicely on a mutual friend's Facebook status. I'm not sure if we're done not being friends but I kinda hope so. He was a pretty decent guy and lord knows I can use all the friends I can get right now. Besides, life's too short to hold a grudge right? Or maybe I'm just being too kind hearted again. Who knows.

It's after 3am. I need to go do my core exercises and the Tai Chi. If I allow myself to not do it because of the late hour, I'll stop doing it and darnit I'm tired of not taking my health seriously.

I miss Victoria already :(

Lateness

I'm still alive. I know you were worried. It's ok, you can breathe now. I just needed to lock myself up and hide for a couple of days after finals. Grades weren't terrible but of course I could have done better.

Got a new exercise mat so I can start doing my core training again. It's nice and thick. My abs hate me but they'll get over it. Did my Tai Chi tonight. My arms and legs are shaky and sore and I'm exhausted so I'm going to bed cause it's after 1:30am. Let's see how long I can keep this up eh?

Got the Christmas shopping for the leech done last week while he was in school. I hate that I couldn't afford more :/ Oh well, he's getting a computer in January probably. Hummingbird is going to get a *********....if he can manage to stop getting suspended from school!

Side note: I had actually put what he was going to get instead of the ***** but then I realized, he might actually read this so I replaced it with the asterisks just in case.

I'm going to bed now. Love to all!