Nah...
It's been almost two months since I posted anything and I feel like I should say something. Unfortunately I'm so darned busy I don't have time to do so. Maybe this weekend...
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I'm Afraid..
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of going to sleep...because apparently I might miss something. Ugh. I could have fallen asleep 4 hours ago because I was tired, but I didn't. Why? Hellfire if I know! Maybe I should start reading again before bed. Oh I miss the days when I was tired of my computer. You remember don't you? The days when I spent so much time here for school I shunned it all when the semester ended. Oh those days will be here soon. In the meantime, I have to get myself unbored. You see, when I'm bored then I get in a rut and I don't want to do anything or go anywhere or see anyone or any variation of anything.
I need to start reading to the leech at bedtime again. We're halfway through Alice's Adventures. I love Lewis Carroll (aka Charles Dodson). He made math whimsical and fun for everyone. I also love this book. It gives a brief history of his mathematical life and a chronology of his work.
Well, I guess there's not much more to say is there. Maybe I should go write that essay tonight and get it out of the way. You know...since I'm up and everything. Then if I get that done I can either go to bed or rewatch the pilot episode of Doctor Who. Hmm, it's tempting to skip the essay lol...ugh, I'm terrible!!!
I need to start reading to the leech at bedtime again. We're halfway through Alice's Adventures. I love Lewis Carroll (aka Charles Dodson). He made math whimsical and fun for everyone. I also love this book. It gives a brief history of his mathematical life and a chronology of his work. Well, I guess there's not much more to say is there. Maybe I should go write that essay tonight and get it out of the way. You know...since I'm up and everything. Then if I get that done I can either go to bed or rewatch the pilot episode of Doctor Who. Hmm, it's tempting to skip the essay lol...ugh, I'm terrible!!!
The End of Time
| Monday, July 26, 2010 |
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Ok, that's a little dramatic...but you know me! As you can see it's been about 2 months since I've posted anything. I suppose I should fill you in on everything huh? Let's see...
May:
Not really much happened here except for the end of the semester...which I didn't do as well as I wanted. Don't get me wrong, I passed everything...but I didn't do well enough to pull my GPA up back where it's supposed to be. Continued with the softball and kicked a lot of butt. The team really improved so much. The leech broke his glasses and I found out I wouldn't have enough money to bring my monkey home for the summer.
June:
I started the McNair internship. It was pretty rough....not in any way that would imply that it was difficult, because it wasn't...but it was Monday thru Friday from 8am - 4:30pm for 8 weeks. There were projects and papers due almost every day. When I got home, I was up till 11pm almost every night working on homework. I didn't even have time to enjoy the heat outside. My tan this year is pretty much a failure. The softball team went into the tournament and came in 4th. Not bad for a group of people who'd never played together before...and a couple of us who'd never played before at all (ie, me!).
July:
First half of the month went well. I got into a rhythm with the internship. I became fast friends with the other 18 people in my cohort. I definitely couldn't have made it through without the lot of them. Then, on the 10th I started having some pain in my abdomen. I dealt with it like I normally do...till after dinner, when the pain got so bad I starting throwing up...and didn't stop. Victoria took me to the emergency room. 16 hours later, they admitted me. I got a regular CT scan which showed a small bowel obstruction...so they stuck an NG tube up my nose to pour contrast dye in my stomach to get a better picture. 4 cups later and I started throwing up. Then I got another CT.
After the 2nd CT they decided that it wasn't a small bowel obstruction and was probably 4 cysts on my ovary. They did a vaginal ultrasound to confirm..but they couldn't really tell. On the 13th the doctor and I decided that she was going to go in laprascopically to find out what was wrong. They preped me for surgery and told me that they either wouldn't find anything, they'd find cysts (which they couldn't do anything about), or they'd have to remove either one or both of my ovaries.
When I woke up the doctor told me that she had to remove my left ovary and fallopian tube. Apparently my fallopian tube had filled with so much fluid that it was the size of a small intestine...and had wrapped around my ovary a couple of times (thus what they thought were the cysts). She was pretty amazed that I hadn't been in pain before because this, apparently, was something that happens over the course of a year. The only continual pain I'd been having was the pulled muscle on the lower right side of my back (which, coincidentally, is gone now btw).
So they released me the next day and I went hope with wonderful narcotics....and then I started throwing up and didn't stop. I went back to the ER on the 18th and after a couple of hours, some more medicine, and a group of male doctors poking on my already very sore stomach, they decided that it was the narcotics that were making me sick because I don't normally take medicines. They told me to stop taking them and I went home. Wouldn't you know, but it worked. Thankfully, and now I've got 1 day left of my 2 weeks of bed rest. I go in for my post-surgical follow up on Weds and hopefully she'll say I'm fine.
I feel fine now. Oh, alright, I'm still tired and sore and I wear out easily...but every day I get a little bit closer back to my old self. Frankly, I've been bored ... the only thing that's saved me has been reawakening my love of The Doctor. I'd forgotten all about the show....and I just spent the last week watching every single episode and movies of the newer series. I'm in lust with David Tennant, the 10th Doctor...but who isn't? He's a beautiful man.
I was a little worried about the change to Matt Smith as the 11th Doctor. Here's my take on it...he's a good actor, but David Tennant is flat out brilliant. The best thing to come out of Series 5 is Arthur Darvill. He's another beautiful man...and he's a damned good actor. Funny but he's my favorite out of Series 5. Karen Gillan was okay...I'm going to interject here and say that I'm glad they didn't try and have her fall in love with The Doctor. It was very awkward when Martha Jones did it. Donna Nobel was definitely my favorite companion of The Doctor's of all time. She was brilliant..both the character and the actress. I really hope to see more of her in the future. Anywho, back to Arthur...rawr....I mean really, what else is there to say?
I s'pose I've been writing a lot today. I wonder when I'll come back to write more? Oh, I've been crocheting a lot...but I ran out of yarn. That's not really a good thing to do. And now, there are more words in my head but I can't really put them in the correct order...or even enough to make sense out of them so I'll sod off for now.
G'bye you lot!
May:
Not really much happened here except for the end of the semester...which I didn't do as well as I wanted. Don't get me wrong, I passed everything...but I didn't do well enough to pull my GPA up back where it's supposed to be. Continued with the softball and kicked a lot of butt. The team really improved so much. The leech broke his glasses and I found out I wouldn't have enough money to bring my monkey home for the summer.
June:
I started the McNair internship. It was pretty rough....not in any way that would imply that it was difficult, because it wasn't...but it was Monday thru Friday from 8am - 4:30pm for 8 weeks. There were projects and papers due almost every day. When I got home, I was up till 11pm almost every night working on homework. I didn't even have time to enjoy the heat outside. My tan this year is pretty much a failure. The softball team went into the tournament and came in 4th. Not bad for a group of people who'd never played together before...and a couple of us who'd never played before at all (ie, me!).
July:
First half of the month went well. I got into a rhythm with the internship. I became fast friends with the other 18 people in my cohort. I definitely couldn't have made it through without the lot of them. Then, on the 10th I started having some pain in my abdomen. I dealt with it like I normally do...till after dinner, when the pain got so bad I starting throwing up...and didn't stop. Victoria took me to the emergency room. 16 hours later, they admitted me. I got a regular CT scan which showed a small bowel obstruction...so they stuck an NG tube up my nose to pour contrast dye in my stomach to get a better picture. 4 cups later and I started throwing up. Then I got another CT.
After the 2nd CT they decided that it wasn't a small bowel obstruction and was probably 4 cysts on my ovary. They did a vaginal ultrasound to confirm..but they couldn't really tell. On the 13th the doctor and I decided that she was going to go in laprascopically to find out what was wrong. They preped me for surgery and told me that they either wouldn't find anything, they'd find cysts (which they couldn't do anything about), or they'd have to remove either one or both of my ovaries.
When I woke up the doctor told me that she had to remove my left ovary and fallopian tube. Apparently my fallopian tube had filled with so much fluid that it was the size of a small intestine...and had wrapped around my ovary a couple of times (thus what they thought were the cysts). She was pretty amazed that I hadn't been in pain before because this, apparently, was something that happens over the course of a year. The only continual pain I'd been having was the pulled muscle on the lower right side of my back (which, coincidentally, is gone now btw).
So they released me the next day and I went hope with wonderful narcotics....and then I started throwing up and didn't stop. I went back to the ER on the 18th and after a couple of hours, some more medicine, and a group of male doctors poking on my already very sore stomach, they decided that it was the narcotics that were making me sick because I don't normally take medicines. They told me to stop taking them and I went home. Wouldn't you know, but it worked. Thankfully, and now I've got 1 day left of my 2 weeks of bed rest. I go in for my post-surgical follow up on Weds and hopefully she'll say I'm fine.
I feel fine now. Oh, alright, I'm still tired and sore and I wear out easily...but every day I get a little bit closer back to my old self. Frankly, I've been bored ... the only thing that's saved me has been reawakening my love of The Doctor. I'd forgotten all about the show....and I just spent the last week watching every single episode and movies of the newer series. I'm in lust with David Tennant, the 10th Doctor...but who isn't? He's a beautiful man.
I was a little worried about the change to Matt Smith as the 11th Doctor. Here's my take on it...he's a good actor, but David Tennant is flat out brilliant. The best thing to come out of Series 5 is Arthur Darvill. He's another beautiful man...and he's a damned good actor. Funny but he's my favorite out of Series 5. Karen Gillan was okay...I'm going to interject here and say that I'm glad they didn't try and have her fall in love with The Doctor. It was very awkward when Martha Jones did it. Donna Nobel was definitely my favorite companion of The Doctor's of all time. She was brilliant..both the character and the actress. I really hope to see more of her in the future. Anywho, back to Arthur...rawr....I mean really, what else is there to say?
I s'pose I've been writing a lot today. I wonder when I'll come back to write more? Oh, I've been crocheting a lot...but I ran out of yarn. That's not really a good thing to do. And now, there are more words in my head but I can't really put them in the correct order...or even enough to make sense out of them so I'll sod off for now.
G'bye you lot!
Is a bear catholic?!
Apparently they are lol.
I've finished 12 pages of my research paper tonight. In case you didn't know, I'm writing about the time series analysis of monthly mortality data from pneumonia and influenza. No that's not the working title of it lol. I've still got about a section and a half to do and I need to compile a list of resources. And if you didn't know, I'm writing this article in LaTex
. I have never used this program before so I'm learning as I go....and I'm totally having fun with it. I'm such a nerd.
On a different note, I'm really really enjoying his company. It's slightly frustrating that because of the slight distance I can't see him when I want to but on the other hand, I kinda like that too.
I can't wait for Friday so I can let my left brain rest for a little while.
I'm also putting in a lot of prayers to the boss upstairs about helping me with my financial issues at the moment. I'd really like to make enough to pay my rent for May and pay the rest of my tuition.
Time for sleep. I'm almost giddy with the idea that the semester is almost over....
I've finished 12 pages of my research paper tonight. In case you didn't know, I'm writing about the time series analysis of monthly mortality data from pneumonia and influenza. No that's not the working title of it lol. I've still got about a section and a half to do and I need to compile a list of resources. And if you didn't know, I'm writing this article in LaTex
. I have never used this program before so I'm learning as I go....and I'm totally having fun with it. I'm such a nerd.On a different note, I'm really really enjoying his company. It's slightly frustrating that because of the slight distance I can't see him when I want to but on the other hand, I kinda like that too.
I can't wait for Friday so I can let my left brain rest for a little while.
I'm also putting in a lot of prayers to the boss upstairs about helping me with my financial issues at the moment. I'd really like to make enough to pay my rent for May and pay the rest of my tuition.
Time for sleep. I'm almost giddy with the idea that the semester is almost over....
Faith
I have faith in my Brothers to do what is right, and I trust in our governing documents to take care of things when they don't.
That's all I can say about that...but it's been a very long, emotionally draining night.
That's all I can say about that...but it's been a very long, emotionally draining night.
Today
| Tuesday, April 27, 2010 |
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Today was pretty good I think. Even though I almost had a meltdown.
I almost cried in my Physics lab. It was stupid and I think my hormones must be raging. Kinda hard to tell when you don't bleed anymore.
So I'm sitting there, in the dark cause we're doing an optics lab, and I'm writing really slow. It was a quick lab, I should have been out of there in 30 minutes but for some reason my brain just didn't want to keep up with the guys. We have a new lab partner and when I asked a question she explained it to me. 5 minutes later, I'm asking the same question. I felt stupid but, bless her heart, she didn't seem frustrated with me at all and continued to try and explain it to me.
I was getting so flipping frustrated with myself because it should have been really easy. I mean, I've done this stuff before but it just wasn't registering with me. I felt my eyes start to water and just pretended I understood so we could move on. Thankfully, Michael is extremely patient with me and understands what I need so he just wrote the equations down for me and I copied them. Then he stayed another 10 or 15 minutes after to help me finish getting my data and catching up ... after our other 2 lab partners had left. I love him. I'm so sad that we won't have any more classes together anymore.
Then I go to financial aide to make sure I'm going to get money to go to school this summer. Well I am...but it's not even enough to pay for my 2 classes that I'm signed up for. So I have to come up with about $500 to pay for classes plus my summer rent...because I found out that I can't get out of my housing contract until August. So not only do I have to find a job that will pay me enough to pay for all of this while working part time and also working with my schedule when I start my research internship in June but I have to figure out how we're going to get Victoria into the apartment in June without me being able to help out.
I'm sure we could wait till August, but the manager said she wasn't sure any apartments would be open in August for us. They have one opening in June and we were going to take that one....until all these things got thrown up in my face.
On the plus side! I got to help the leech with his science fair project. He's measuring the distance a Hot Wheels car slides on different surfaces (wood floor, carpet, cement, grass) when released from a ramp. We did the wood floor and carpet tonight. I think we'll have to redo the carpet at Victoria's though, just so I can get a better picture. The outside distances we'll do hopefully tomorrow or Friday when it dries up outside. Can you believe we had HAIL today?! It's crazy.
I managed to type up a list of definitions for my Numerical Linear Algebra final in LaTex. Which was kinda fun to figure out. I also met with my research professor today and we discussed our summer schedule and my next step to writing my article.
We won our first softball game yesterday (that's me, #13!). It was pretty exciting! It was officially 13-9, but we actually had 16. Someone in the score-box screwed up. I'm not complaining at all...I just like to be correct. We went out to Dairy Queen afterwords. It was a lot of fun and I can't wait for next week's game! Maybe I'll actually catch the balls that come my way lol. I dropped the 2 that did yesterday. It was a bit frustrating.
I know my blog isn't read by many...but if you would do me a favor and say a little prayer for me that everything works out without much trouble. I'd really appreciate it.
I almost cried in my Physics lab. It was stupid and I think my hormones must be raging. Kinda hard to tell when you don't bleed anymore.So I'm sitting there, in the dark cause we're doing an optics lab, and I'm writing really slow. It was a quick lab, I should have been out of there in 30 minutes but for some reason my brain just didn't want to keep up with the guys. We have a new lab partner and when I asked a question she explained it to me. 5 minutes later, I'm asking the same question. I felt stupid but, bless her heart, she didn't seem frustrated with me at all and continued to try and explain it to me.
I was getting so flipping frustrated with myself because it should have been really easy. I mean, I've done this stuff before but it just wasn't registering with me. I felt my eyes start to water and just pretended I understood so we could move on. Thankfully, Michael is extremely patient with me and understands what I need so he just wrote the equations down for me and I copied them. Then he stayed another 10 or 15 minutes after to help me finish getting my data and catching up ... after our other 2 lab partners had left. I love him. I'm so sad that we won't have any more classes together anymore.
Then I go to financial aide to make sure I'm going to get money to go to school this summer. Well I am...but it's not even enough to pay for my 2 classes that I'm signed up for. So I have to come up with about $500 to pay for classes plus my summer rent...because I found out that I can't get out of my housing contract until August. So not only do I have to find a job that will pay me enough to pay for all of this while working part time and also working with my schedule when I start my research internship in June but I have to figure out how we're going to get Victoria into the apartment in June without me being able to help out.
I'm sure we could wait till August, but the manager said she wasn't sure any apartments would be open in August for us. They have one opening in June and we were going to take that one....until all these things got thrown up in my face.
On the plus side! I got to help the leech with his science fair project. He's measuring the distance a Hot Wheels car slides on different surfaces (wood floor, carpet, cement, grass) when released from a ramp. We did the wood floor and carpet tonight. I think we'll have to redo the carpet at Victoria's though, just so I can get a better picture. The outside distances we'll do hopefully tomorrow or Friday when it dries up outside. Can you believe we had HAIL today?! It's crazy.
I managed to type up a list of definitions for my Numerical Linear Algebra final in LaTex. Which was kinda fun to figure out. I also met with my research professor today and we discussed our summer schedule and my next step to writing my article.We won our first softball game yesterday (that's me, #13!). It was pretty exciting! It was officially 13-9, but we actually had 16. Someone in the score-box screwed up. I'm not complaining at all...I just like to be correct. We went out to Dairy Queen afterwords. It was a lot of fun and I can't wait for next week's game! Maybe I'll actually catch the balls that come my way lol. I dropped the 2 that did yesterday. It was a bit frustrating.
I know my blog isn't read by many...but if you would do me a favor and say a little prayer for me that everything works out without much trouble. I'd really appreciate it.
Post Script
I'm officially declared with a Psychology minor.
My back hurts today and I really need to stretch before the game.
I had a whole list of things I was going to put but as soon as the blank page opened up begging me for words....they all ran away *sigh*.
Oh! But I found this gem of a site. I had a mini nerd-gasm.
Geek 2 Geek - "The best place on the net to meet geeks".
My back hurts today and I really need to stretch before the game.
I had a whole list of things I was going to put but as soon as the blank page opened up begging me for words....they all ran away *sigh*.
Oh! But I found this gem of a site. I had a mini nerd-gasm.
Geek 2 Geek - "The best place on the net to meet geeks".
To play or not to play
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It's not really a question. I promise!
Today is my first softball game ever...and it's raining...lol.
Today is my first softball game ever...and it's raining...lol.
Just for fun
| Sunday, April 25, 2010 |
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Quizzes for when you're bored
So I'm thinking about making a new D&D character and I'm not exactly sure what to pick. Thankfully I found this site that asked me 129 questions and now knows exactly what I should be!!! (did you hear the sarcasm? lol, I really did enjoy this and it honestly tells a lot about my personality I think).
Enjoy!
Alignment:
Lawful Neutral A lawful neutral character acts as law, tradition, or a personal code directs him. Order and organization are paramount to him. He may believe in personal order and live by a code or standard, or he may believe in order for all and favor a strong, organized government. Lawful neutral is the best alignment you can be because it means you are reliable and honorable without being a zealot. However, lawful neutral can be a dangerous alignment because it seeks to eliminate all freedom, choice, and diversity in society.
Race:
Humans are the most adaptable of the common races. Short generations and a penchant for migration and conquest have made them physically diverse as well. Humans are often unorthodox in their dress, sporting unusual hairstyles, fanciful clothes, tattoos, and the like.
Class:
Monks are versatile warriors skilled at fighting without weapons or armor. Good-aligned monks serve as protectors of the people, while evil monks make ideal spies and assassins. Though they don't cast spells, monks channel a subtle energy, called ki. This energy allows them to perform amazing feats, such as healing themselves, catching arrows in flight, and dodging blows with lightning speed. Their mundane and ki-based abilities grow with experience, granting them more power over themselves and their environment. Monks suffer unique penalties to their abilities if they wear armor, as doing so violates their rigid oath. A monk wearing armor loses their Wisdom and level based armor class bonuses, their movement speed, and their additional unarmed attacks per round.
Detailed Results:
Alignment:
Lawful Good ----- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (21)
Neutral Good ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (17)
Chaotic Good ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (15)
Lawful Neutral -- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (29)
True Neutral ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (25)
Chaotic Neutral - XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (23)
Lawful Evil ----- XXXXXXXXXXX (11)
Neutral Evil ---- XXXXXXX (7)
Chaotic Evil ---- XXXXX (5)
Law & Chaos:
Law ----- XXXXXXXXXXX (11)
Neutral - XXXXXXX (7)
Chaos --- XXXXX (5)
Good & Evil:
Good ---- XXXXXXXXXX (10)
Neutral - XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (18)
Evil ---- (0)
Race:
Human ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXX (13)
Dwarf ---- XXXXXXXX (8)
Elf ------ XXXXXXXXXXXX (12)
Gnome ---- XXXXXXXX (8)
Halfling - XXXXXXXXXX (10)
Half-Elf - XXXXXXXXX (9)
Half-Orc - XXXX (4)
Class:
Barbarian - (-29)
Bard ------ (-17)
Cleric ---- XXXX (4)
Druid ----- (0)
Fighter --- (-4)
Monk ------ XXXXXX (6)
Paladin --- (-21)
Ranger ---- XXXX (4)
Rogue ----- (-4)
Sorcerer -- (-2)
Wizard ---- (0)
Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?, courtesy of Easydamus (e-mail)
Enjoy!
I Am A: Lawful Neutral Human Monk (4th Level)
Ability Scores:
Strength-11
Dexterity-11
Constitution-11
Intelligence-13
Wisdom-14
Charisma-13
Alignment:
Lawful Neutral A lawful neutral character acts as law, tradition, or a personal code directs him. Order and organization are paramount to him. He may believe in personal order and live by a code or standard, or he may believe in order for all and favor a strong, organized government. Lawful neutral is the best alignment you can be because it means you are reliable and honorable without being a zealot. However, lawful neutral can be a dangerous alignment because it seeks to eliminate all freedom, choice, and diversity in society.
Race:
Humans are the most adaptable of the common races. Short generations and a penchant for migration and conquest have made them physically diverse as well. Humans are often unorthodox in their dress, sporting unusual hairstyles, fanciful clothes, tattoos, and the like.
Class:
Monks are versatile warriors skilled at fighting without weapons or armor. Good-aligned monks serve as protectors of the people, while evil monks make ideal spies and assassins. Though they don't cast spells, monks channel a subtle energy, called ki. This energy allows them to perform amazing feats, such as healing themselves, catching arrows in flight, and dodging blows with lightning speed. Their mundane and ki-based abilities grow with experience, granting them more power over themselves and their environment. Monks suffer unique penalties to their abilities if they wear armor, as doing so violates their rigid oath. A monk wearing armor loses their Wisdom and level based armor class bonuses, their movement speed, and their additional unarmed attacks per round.
Detailed Results:
Alignment:
Lawful Good ----- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (21)
Neutral Good ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (17)
Chaotic Good ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (15)
Lawful Neutral -- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (29)
True Neutral ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (25)
Chaotic Neutral - XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (23)
Lawful Evil ----- XXXXXXXXXXX (11)
Neutral Evil ---- XXXXXXX (7)
Chaotic Evil ---- XXXXX (5)
Law & Chaos:
Law ----- XXXXXXXXXXX (11)
Neutral - XXXXXXX (7)
Chaos --- XXXXX (5)
Good & Evil:
Good ---- XXXXXXXXXX (10)
Neutral - XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (18)
Evil ---- (0)
Race:
Human ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXX (13)
Dwarf ---- XXXXXXXX (8)
Elf ------ XXXXXXXXXXXX (12)
Gnome ---- XXXXXXXX (8)
Halfling - XXXXXXXXXX (10)
Half-Elf - XXXXXXXXX (9)
Half-Orc - XXXX (4)
Class:
Barbarian - (-29)
Bard ------ (-17)
Cleric ---- XXXX (4)
Druid ----- (0)
Fighter --- (-4)
Monk ------ XXXXXX (6)
Paladin --- (-21)
Ranger ---- XXXX (4)
Rogue ----- (-4)
Sorcerer -- (-2)
Wizard ---- (0)
Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?, courtesy of Easydamus (e-mail)
Late night ramblings
| Friday, April 23, 2010 |
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breathing is optional,
it's rude to push even if the world is exploding,
Madonna is running around in my head and I'm not really sure if I'm a fan,
sleep is for the weak
It's been awhile. I'm sorry you missed me. Everyone has, you're not special. Well, you are of course...very special...just not that you're the only one who missed me cause you're not. Even Victoria misses me and we live nearby.
So...what to say?
I've been so busy. I'm barely hanging on. I started out the semester so strongly and even by the middle I was still on top of everything. One week left and I'm praying that I can keep it together long enough for finals. Ugh.
The research is going well...slowly but well. If I weren't bogged down by classes I'd have time to be able to really understand what I was doing. I got denied to all of my summer internships that I applied for out of state. I even got semi-denied for the one here on campus (I got slotted as one of four alternates). Needless to say, things weren't looking very good for me. However, someone had my back because everything started to fall into place. I got moved into the program and off of the wait list. Victoria and I are also moving in June instead of August. I even found 2 classes in pre-summer session that I can take (now I just have to pray that I actually get financial aide this summer or I'll have a whole new slew of problems).
Through all of this I even decided on a minor...Psychology. Heck, when I'm finished with my degree I can get a Masters in counseling. It's something I keep coming back to. I'm scared about detouring my life so completely right now though so I'll be finishing my degree in Math. Besides, I really do like statistics. So I'll get my Ph.D in that and then work on that Masters in Psychology. Then I can do my own statistical research on my clients LOL.
I really should go to bed though. It's getting late and I've got a lot going on this weekend. I've jumped head-long into helping my chapter struggle onto their own two feet again. I really believe we can do this and move through our issues. Unfortunately, that doesn't leave much time to breathe. I'll just leave you with a list of things that demand my time lately...then I'm going to bed.
So...what to say?
I've been so busy. I'm barely hanging on. I started out the semester so strongly and even by the middle I was still on top of everything. One week left and I'm praying that I can keep it together long enough for finals. Ugh.
The research is going well...slowly but well. If I weren't bogged down by classes I'd have time to be able to really understand what I was doing. I got denied to all of my summer internships that I applied for out of state. I even got semi-denied for the one here on campus (I got slotted as one of four alternates). Needless to say, things weren't looking very good for me. However, someone had my back because everything started to fall into place. I got moved into the program and off of the wait list. Victoria and I are also moving in June instead of August. I even found 2 classes in pre-summer session that I can take (now I just have to pray that I actually get financial aide this summer or I'll have a whole new slew of problems).
Through all of this I even decided on a minor...Psychology. Heck, when I'm finished with my degree I can get a Masters in counseling. It's something I keep coming back to. I'm scared about detouring my life so completely right now though so I'll be finishing my degree in Math. Besides, I really do like statistics. So I'll get my Ph.D in that and then work on that Masters in Psychology. Then I can do my own statistical research on my clients LOL.
I really should go to bed though. It's getting late and I've got a lot going on this weekend. I've jumped head-long into helping my chapter struggle onto their own two feet again. I really believe we can do this and move through our issues. Unfortunately, that doesn't leave much time to breathe. I'll just leave you with a list of things that demand my time lately...then I'm going to bed.
- kids
- school
- fraternity
- research
- internships
- softball
- baseball (son's)
- church
- friends - a particular friend who had to have emergency surgery to remove a mass from her spine
- math club (the technical term for this is the Mathematical Association of America, Student Chapter but that's just really a mouthful isn't it?)
- stupid people disrespecting my son and myself
- my right brain demanding to be used
- getting ready to move
- and at this point I'm really trying to find more stuff to add to the list - because obviously the list isn't long enough is it?
Knows or nose?
| Tuesday, March 30, 2010 |
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It's only a canvas sky, hanging over a muslin tree.
But it wouldn't be make believe if you believed in me.
The day is over...it's time to dance.
But it wouldn't be make believe if you believed in me.
The day is over...it's time to dance.
Convenience
I have this nifty new gadget in my iGoogle homepage that lets me blog on any of my blogs with indescribable easiness.
I may just blog more...maybe? lol.
Later....later...I'm busy now.
I may just blog more...maybe? lol.
Later....later...I'm busy now.
Chaos
I'm telling everyone.
I made chaos today. When I was done I just wanted to curl up in a hole and die because I was so drained, physically and mentally...but damn it's a beautiful thing. Don't you think so too??
I made chaos today. When I was done I just wanted to curl up in a hole and die because I was so drained, physically and mentally...but damn it's a beautiful thing. Don't you think so too??
Vulnerable
| Sunday, March 21, 2010 |
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life,
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I don't know how. Wouldn't it be perfect that that's what I've been missing all this time? It seems like desperation to me. "Look at me. Love me. I can't live without your approval." I'm sorry but I know the world doesn't revolve around me.
Am I scared? Petrified even. I won't show you though. I don't know how to let anyone in that much. Vulnerability is a feminine trait. Does it make me less desirable because I don't need your validation?
And even now, I can't find the words to express what I feel. I hate this because I'm probably just being selfish anyway.
Am I scared? Petrified even. I won't show you though. I don't know how to let anyone in that much. Vulnerability is a feminine trait. Does it make me less desirable because I don't need your validation?
And even now, I can't find the words to express what I feel. I hate this because I'm probably just being selfish anyway.
Please??
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breathing,
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I'm begging...just give me some time to breathe before you pile yet another urgent request on me. I have things I need to do too ya'know?
Welcome to Denmark, we have hot men!
Just a couple of pics from my trip.
Me 'n Viktoria at the castle in Hillerod:
Me, Robert, Viktoria, 'n Vincent drunk in the Copenhagen train station:
Robert, Me, 'n Vincent at The Happy Pig:
Me 'n Viktoria at the castle in Hillerod:
Me, Robert, Viktoria, 'n Vincent drunk in the Copenhagen train station:
Robert, Me, 'n Vincent at The Happy Pig:
Pocket full of happiness
| Wednesday, March 10, 2010 |
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I'll only use the dildo if you hold it,
no I will not eat your cow meat,
pocket full of happiness
Yup, I have it. I'm currently in Denmark if you didn't know. I love it. The architecture is so simple and amazing in its simplicity. The people are so easy going and nice...and my friends...are the best. I'm so glad I was able to do this trip - even though the sex museum was closed lol.
Viktoria, is so full of vitality and fun. Vincent is so proper at first glance but is such a wonderful guy. Robert is..everything I've come to know the last 5 years of knowing him. I feel so comfortable here with them. There hasn't been the slightest bit of awkwardness or uncomfortableness that I've known before from meeting people that I've met online. I think it's because I've known them for so long online. Regardless, these are three friends that will always have a special place in my heart...no matter where life takes us.
There is a bit of ... confusion ... I think, going on inside of me though. I didn't come here with any expectations of my relationship with Robert other than being wonderful friends...but there have been a couple of moments when he and I have been alone, just talking, and I'll catch myself wanting to kiss him. It's a bit of a shock...not much, considering our history...but..I really thought I was over that part of it. I've been able to catch that feeling and let it go though so there's no uncomfortableness or anything. Plus, I'm not going to do anything about it. I'm done being the one who makes the first move.
Everyone is asleep and I'm not tired. Of course, it's only 8:40pm in the states and in Denmark it's 2:40. I should go to sleep soon. Viktoria passed her sickness to Robert and I ... and I'm going to need all the rest I can get to fight it off. Tomorrow will be nice, we're just going to hang around the house until we take Viktoria to the train station and then go visit 3 more friends that I've met online. I'm a little nervous about this meeting because while I met them years ago, around the same time I met Robert, I don't really know them. We'll see. If it gets weird I've got Vincent to talk to lol.
Think I'm gonna go surf the interwebs for awhile before I fall asleep. Hope everyone is having a great week. I'll be home the evening of the 13th. Try not to miss me.
Viktoria, is so full of vitality and fun. Vincent is so proper at first glance but is such a wonderful guy. Robert is..everything I've come to know the last 5 years of knowing him. I feel so comfortable here with them. There hasn't been the slightest bit of awkwardness or uncomfortableness that I've known before from meeting people that I've met online. I think it's because I've known them for so long online. Regardless, these are three friends that will always have a special place in my heart...no matter where life takes us.
There is a bit of ... confusion ... I think, going on inside of me though. I didn't come here with any expectations of my relationship with Robert other than being wonderful friends...but there have been a couple of moments when he and I have been alone, just talking, and I'll catch myself wanting to kiss him. It's a bit of a shock...not much, considering our history...but..I really thought I was over that part of it. I've been able to catch that feeling and let it go though so there's no uncomfortableness or anything. Plus, I'm not going to do anything about it. I'm done being the one who makes the first move.
Everyone is asleep and I'm not tired. Of course, it's only 8:40pm in the states and in Denmark it's 2:40. I should go to sleep soon. Viktoria passed her sickness to Robert and I ... and I'm going to need all the rest I can get to fight it off. Tomorrow will be nice, we're just going to hang around the house until we take Viktoria to the train station and then go visit 3 more friends that I've met online. I'm a little nervous about this meeting because while I met them years ago, around the same time I met Robert, I don't really know them. We'll see. If it gets weird I've got Vincent to talk to lol.
Think I'm gonna go surf the interwebs for awhile before I fall asleep. Hope everyone is having a great week. I'll be home the evening of the 13th. Try not to miss me.
2/22
| Monday, February 22, 2010 |
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everything I could possibly think of to avoid going to bed
Yes, that's the date. It made me smile all day when I wrote it. I don't know why, it just did.
Long day...it's after 11pm and I should go to bed. I will...after this. I finally did everything I needed to do for the internships. Now I'm just waiting on Dr. A to give me his notes on my first draft of the statement of intent so I can polish it up and actually send in the applications for them.
I feel like having another cup of tea...I think I will. Some chamomile to be exact. Don't go anywhere, I'll be right back!
Back while it's in the microwave...now, where was I? Oh ... I haven't done my lab report that's due Thursday...and I have a project due on Friday for numerical linear algebra. I've started my research for Dr. A. I'm tabulating the number of pneumonia and influenza deaths in 122 US cities from 1994-the present. The hardest part is sifting through the thousands of pages to find the singular table for each week of the specific year I need. I'm supposed to just turn in the data for one year every week...I've done two years this week so far. Is it bad that I'd rather do this than study?
Speaking of studying...I got a 15% on my differential equations exam last week. I'm so upset with myself right now. I guess I can't be too surprised since I pretty much waited until the last minute to study. I wish I could get out of that habit *sigh*.
I had a blast for my birthday though. Twenty friends showed up for dinner at Stir Fry Cafe and then about 10 made it to New Beginnings later that night. I had the best outfit on and got to wear my green plaid mini-skirt finally! All the drag queens wished me a happy birthday - and by that I mean only one of them did...but she was gorgeous so I'm only counting her as one lol.
Oh wait...gotta go sweeten up my tea...
Ok back..ugh, I have to remember to mail off those bills - can you tell I just saw them?
I guess I really don't have anything else to say now. I need to take a pill and do my stretches so when my physical therapist asks if I've been doing them I don't have to lie. It's not my fault! By the time I finally make it to bed I'm so exhausted I don't want to do anything but curl up under the covers and pass out.
Okay, okay...I'm going! G'night my dears.
<3
Long day...it's after 11pm and I should go to bed. I will...after this. I finally did everything I needed to do for the internships. Now I'm just waiting on Dr. A to give me his notes on my first draft of the statement of intent so I can polish it up and actually send in the applications for them.
I feel like having another cup of tea...I think I will. Some chamomile to be exact. Don't go anywhere, I'll be right back!
Back while it's in the microwave...now, where was I? Oh ... I haven't done my lab report that's due Thursday...and I have a project due on Friday for numerical linear algebra. I've started my research for Dr. A. I'm tabulating the number of pneumonia and influenza deaths in 122 US cities from 1994-the present. The hardest part is sifting through the thousands of pages to find the singular table for each week of the specific year I need. I'm supposed to just turn in the data for one year every week...I've done two years this week so far. Is it bad that I'd rather do this than study?
Speaking of studying...I got a 15% on my differential equations exam last week. I'm so upset with myself right now. I guess I can't be too surprised since I pretty much waited until the last minute to study. I wish I could get out of that habit *sigh*.
I had a blast for my birthday though. Twenty friends showed up for dinner at Stir Fry Cafe and then about 10 made it to New Beginnings later that night. I had the best outfit on and got to wear my green plaid mini-skirt finally! All the drag queens wished me a happy birthday - and by that I mean only one of them did...but she was gorgeous so I'm only counting her as one lol.
Oh wait...gotta go sweeten up my tea...
Ok back..ugh, I have to remember to mail off those bills - can you tell I just saw them?
I guess I really don't have anything else to say now. I need to take a pill and do my stretches so when my physical therapist asks if I've been doing them I don't have to lie. It's not my fault! By the time I finally make it to bed I'm so exhausted I don't want to do anything but curl up under the covers and pass out.
Okay, okay...I'm going! G'night my dears.
<3
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