Faith

I have faith in my Brothers to do what is right, and I trust in our governing documents to take care of things when they don't.

That's all I can say about that...but it's been a very long, emotionally draining night.

Today

Today was pretty good I think.  Even though I almost had a meltdown.

I almost cried in my Physics lab.  It was stupid and I think my hormones must be raging.  Kinda hard to tell when you don't bleed anymore.

So I'm sitting there, in the dark cause we're doing an optics lab, and I'm writing really slow.  It was a quick lab, I should have been out of there in 30 minutes but for some reason my brain just didn't want to keep up with the guys.  We have a new lab partner and when I asked a question she explained it to me.  5 minutes later, I'm asking the same question.  I felt stupid but, bless her heart, she didn't seem frustrated with me at all and continued to try and explain it to me.

I was getting so flipping frustrated with myself because it should have been really easy.  I mean, I've done this stuff before but it just wasn't registering with me.  I felt my eyes start to water and just pretended I understood so we could move on.  Thankfully, Michael is extremely patient with me and understands what I need so he just wrote the equations down for me and I copied them.  Then he stayed another 10 or 15 minutes after to help me finish getting my data and catching up ... after our other 2 lab partners had left.  I love him.  I'm so sad that we won't have any more classes together anymore.

Then I go to financial aide to make sure I'm going to get money to go to school this summer.  Well I am...but it's not even enough to pay for my 2 classes that I'm signed up for.  So I have to come up with about $500 to pay for classes plus my summer rent...because I found out that I can't get out of my housing contract until August.  So not only do I have to find a job that will pay me enough to pay for all of this while working part time and also working with my schedule when I start my research internship in June but I have to figure out how we're going to get Victoria into the apartment in June without me being able to help out.

I'm sure we could wait till August, but the manager said she wasn't sure any apartments would be open in August for us.  They have one opening in June and we were going to take that one....until all these things got thrown up in my face.

On the plus side!  I got to help the leech with his science fair project.  He's measuring the distance a Hot Wheels car slides on different surfaces (wood floor, carpet, cement, grass) when released from a ramp.  We did the wood floor and carpet tonight.  I think we'll have to redo the carpet at Victoria's though, just so I can get a better picture.  The outside distances we'll do hopefully tomorrow or Friday when it dries up outside.  Can you believe we had HAIL today?!  It's crazy.

I managed to type up a list of definitions for my Numerical Linear Algebra final in LaTex.  Which was kinda fun to figure out.  I also met with my research professor today and we discussed our summer schedule and my next step to writing my article.

We won our first softball game yesterday (that's me, #13!).  It was pretty exciting! It was officially 13-9, but we actually had 16.  Someone in the score-box screwed up.  I'm not complaining at all...I just like to be correct.  We went out to Dairy Queen afterwords.  It was a lot of fun and I can't wait for next week's game!  Maybe I'll actually catch the balls that come my way lol.  I dropped the 2 that did yesterday.  It was a bit frustrating.

I know my blog isn't read by many...but if you would do me a favor and say a little prayer for me that everything works out without much trouble.  I'd really appreciate it.

Post Script

I'm officially declared with a Psychology minor.

My back hurts today and I really need to stretch before the game.

I had a whole list of things I was going to put but as soon as the blank page opened up begging me for words....they all ran away *sigh*.

Oh!  But I found this gem of a site.  I had a mini nerd-gasm.

Geek 2 Geek - "The best place on the net to meet geeks".

To play or not to play

It's not really a question.  I promise!

Today is my first softball game ever...and it's raining...lol.

Just for fun

So I'm thinking about making a new D&D character and I'm not exactly sure what to pick.  Thankfully I found this site that asked me 129 questions and now knows exactly what I should be!!! (did you hear the sarcasm? lol, I really did enjoy this and it honestly tells a lot about my personality I think).

Enjoy!

I Am A: Lawful Neutral Human Monk (4th Level)

Ability Scores:

Strength-11

Dexterity-11

Constitution-11

Intelligence-13

Wisdom-14

Charisma-13

Alignment:
Lawful Neutral A lawful neutral character acts as law, tradition, or a personal code directs him. Order and organization are paramount to him. He may believe in personal order and live by a code or standard, or he may believe in order for all and favor a strong, organized government. Lawful neutral is the best alignment you can be because it means you are reliable and honorable without being a zealot. However, lawful neutral can be a dangerous alignment because it seeks to eliminate all freedom, choice, and diversity in society.


Race:
Humans are the most adaptable of the common races. Short generations and a penchant for migration and conquest have made them physically diverse as well. Humans are often unorthodox in their dress, sporting unusual hairstyles, fanciful clothes, tattoos, and the like.


Class:
Monks are versatile warriors skilled at fighting without weapons or armor. Good-aligned monks serve as protectors of the people, while evil monks make ideal spies and assassins. Though they don't cast spells, monks channel a subtle energy, called ki. This energy allows them to perform amazing feats, such as healing themselves, catching arrows in flight, and dodging blows with lightning speed. Their mundane and ki-based abilities grow with experience, granting them more power over themselves and their environment. Monks suffer unique penalties to their abilities if they wear armor, as doing so violates their rigid oath. A monk wearing armor loses their Wisdom and level based armor class bonuses, their movement speed, and their additional unarmed attacks per round.


Detailed Results:

Alignment:
Lawful Good ----- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (21)
Neutral Good ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (17)
Chaotic Good ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (15)
Lawful Neutral -- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (29)
True Neutral ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (25)
Chaotic Neutral - XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (23)
Lawful Evil ----- XXXXXXXXXXX (11)
Neutral Evil ---- XXXXXXX (7)
Chaotic Evil ---- XXXXX (5)

Law & Chaos:
Law ----- XXXXXXXXXXX (11)
Neutral - XXXXXXX (7)
Chaos --- XXXXX (5)

Good & Evil:
Good ---- XXXXXXXXXX (10)
Neutral - XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (18)
Evil ---- (0)

Race:
Human ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXX (13)
Dwarf ---- XXXXXXXX (8)
Elf ------ XXXXXXXXXXXX (12)
Gnome ---- XXXXXXXX (8)
Halfling - XXXXXXXXXX (10)
Half-Elf - XXXXXXXXX (9)
Half-Orc - XXXX (4)

Class:
Barbarian - (-29)
Bard ------ (-17)
Cleric ---- XXXX (4)
Druid ----- (0)
Fighter --- (-4)
Monk ------ XXXXXX (6)
Paladin --- (-21)
Ranger ---- XXXX (4)
Rogue ----- (-4)
Sorcerer -- (-2)
Wizard ---- (0)


Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?, courtesy of Easydamus (e-mail)

Late night ramblings

It's been awhile.  I'm sorry you missed me.  Everyone has, you're not special.  Well, you are of course...very special...just not that you're the only one who missed me cause you're not.  Even Victoria misses me and we live nearby.

So...what to say?

I've been so busy.  I'm barely hanging on.  I started out the semester so strongly and even by the middle I was still on top of everything.  One week left and I'm praying that I can keep it together long enough for finals.  Ugh.

The research is going well...slowly but well.  If I weren't bogged down by classes I'd have time to be able to really understand what I was doing.  I got denied to all of my summer internships that I applied for out of state.  I even got semi-denied for the one here on campus (I got slotted as one of four alternates).  Needless to say, things weren't looking very good for me.  However, someone had my back because everything started to fall into place.  I got moved into the program and off of the wait list.  Victoria and I are also moving in June instead of August.  I even found 2 classes in pre-summer session that I can take (now I just have to pray that I actually get financial aide this summer or I'll have a whole new slew of problems).

Through all of this I even decided on a minor...Psychology.  Heck, when I'm finished with my degree I can get a Masters in counseling.  It's something I keep coming back to.  I'm scared about detouring my life so completely right now though so I'll be finishing my degree in Math.  Besides, I really do like statistics.  So I'll get my Ph.D in that and then work on that Masters in Psychology.  Then I can do my own statistical research on my clients LOL.

I really should go to bed though.  It's getting late and I've got a lot going on this weekend.  I've jumped head-long into helping my chapter struggle onto their own two feet again.  I really believe we can do this and move through our issues.  Unfortunately, that doesn't leave much time to breathe.  I'll just leave you with a list of things that demand my time lately...then I'm going to bed.

• kids
• school
• fraternity
• research
• internships
• softball
• baseball (son's)
• church
• friends - a particular friend who had to have emergency surgery to remove a mass from her spine
• math club (the technical term for this is the Mathematical Association of America, Student Chapter but that's just really a mouthful isn't it?)
• stupid people disrespecting my son and myself
• my right brain demanding to be used
• getting ready to move
• and at this point I'm really trying to find more stuff to add to the list - because obviously the list isn't long enough is it?