Today

Today was pretty good I think.  Even though I almost had a meltdown.

I almost cried in my Physics lab.  It was stupid and I think my hormones must be raging.  Kinda hard to tell when you don't bleed anymore.

So I'm sitting there, in the dark cause we're doing an optics lab, and I'm writing really slow.  It was a quick lab, I should have been out of there in 30 minutes but for some reason my brain just didn't want to keep up with the guys.  We have a new lab partner and when I asked a question she explained it to me.  5 minutes later, I'm asking the same question.  I felt stupid but, bless her heart, she didn't seem frustrated with me at all and continued to try and explain it to me.

I was getting so flipping frustrated with myself because it should have been really easy.  I mean, I've done this stuff before but it just wasn't registering with me.  I felt my eyes start to water and just pretended I understood so we could move on.  Thankfully, Michael is extremely patient with me and understands what I need so he just wrote the equations down for me and I copied them.  Then he stayed another 10 or 15 minutes after to help me finish getting my data and catching up ... after our other 2 lab partners had left.  I love him.  I'm so sad that we won't have any more classes together anymore.

Then I go to financial aide to make sure I'm going to get money to go to school this summer.  Well I am...but it's not even enough to pay for my 2 classes that I'm signed up for.  So I have to come up with about $500 to pay for classes plus my summer rent...because I found out that I can't get out of my housing contract until August.  So not only do I have to find a job that will pay me enough to pay for all of this while working part time and also working with my schedule when I start my research internship in June but I have to figure out how we're going to get Victoria into the apartment in June without me being able to help out.

I'm sure we could wait till August, but the manager said she wasn't sure any apartments would be open in August for us.  They have one opening in June and we were going to take that one....until all these things got thrown up in my face.

On the plus side!  I got to help the leech with his science fair project.  He's measuring the distance a Hot Wheels car slides on different surfaces (wood floor, carpet, cement, grass) when released from a ramp.  We did the wood floor and carpet tonight.  I think we'll have to redo the carpet at Victoria's though, just so I can get a better picture.  The outside distances we'll do hopefully tomorrow or Friday when it dries up outside.  Can you believe we had HAIL today?!  It's crazy.

I managed to type up a list of definitions for my Numerical Linear Algebra final in LaTex.  Which was kinda fun to figure out.  I also met with my research professor today and we discussed our summer schedule and my next step to writing my article.

We won our first softball game yesterday (that's me, #13!).  It was pretty exciting! It was officially 13-9, but we actually had 16.  Someone in the score-box screwed up.  I'm not complaining at all...I just like to be correct.  We went out to Dairy Queen afterwords.  It was a lot of fun and I can't wait for next week's game!  Maybe I'll actually catch the balls that come my way lol.  I dropped the 2 that did yesterday.  It was a bit frustrating.

I know my blog isn't read by many...but if you would do me a favor and say a little prayer for me that everything works out without much trouble.  I'd really appreciate it.

Done...but not quite!

Presents are wrapped woooo! I did it while the leech was outside playing cause I'm sneaky like that. He's still contagious so he'll be staying home tonight and not joining me for service. Which makes me a little sad because Victoria won't be here either :( .

Sent Bob the email...everything's good. Tho I think I'm over thinking things again as usual lol. Thankfully he'll tell me so and everything will go back to normal. I blame the hormones....which btw, I'm on day 4 and no major side effects still! Very glad my face hasn't decided to break out again.

I did my core workout last night but skipped the Tai Chi...it was like after 4am when I finally got to the first part of my workout and I was exhausted. Sadly I couldn't fall asleep till almost 6:30 :/ . Gonna try and get to bed a little early tonight. Maybe make the leech some pancakes for breakfast tomorrow. Careful, the world might stop spinning if I do it lol!

I've been in a writing mood lately. I wrote a couple of journal entries for a character I role play in Star Wars Galaxies. I think they came out pretty good. Now I'm here...not sure for what, nothing really exciting has happened.

I went to church tonight for solstice service. It was really nice and intimate as there was roughly only 20ish people there for the service. Poor Aidan slept through the entire thing - I gave him a dose of Nyquil earlier. I got a little teary during one of the songs...I blame the hormones tho.

Speaking of hormones. I started taking that hormone pack the doc put me on for my back. Today was the first day and I took 6 pills. It was kinda weird, I have to say. I didn't really notice any change in my personality. No mood swings or general crabbiness. I did send a friend request to a guy who I used to be friends with. We haven't been friends in almost a year but were actually talking nicely on a mutual friend's Facebook status. I'm not sure if we're done not being friends but I kinda hope so. He was a pretty decent guy and lord knows I can use all the friends I can get right now. Besides, life's too short to hold a grudge right? Or maybe I'm just being too kind hearted again. Who knows.

It's after 3am. I need to go do my core exercises and the Tai Chi. If I allow myself to not do it because of the late hour, I'll stop doing it and darnit I'm tired of not taking my health seriously.

I miss Victoria already :(

All I wanted

...was forever. Apparently that was too much to hope for.

I'd really appreciate it when these tears stop falling. It gets kinda difficult to carry on a conversation with a huge lump in my throat. Also, the sniffling from the teary nose isn't very attractive either.

I feel all hormonal and I haven't even started taking those pills yet *sigh*.

On the bright side, the sound is fixed and my mic works again.