I'm really glad that you're happy with him...I really am....but I'm starting to feel like you don't give a shit about me anymore. It seems like every time I try to spend time with you I get brushed off. On the off chance that we do do something together I don't feel like you're all there with me and you always put a time limit on it because you have to get back to him. I shouldn't have to adjust my schedule around your boyfriend and I really don't appreciate it anymore.
I miss my friend.
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i am a little church
i am a little church(no great cathedral)
far from the splendor and squalor of hurrying cities
-i do not worry if briefer days grow briefest,
i am not sorry when sun and rain make april
my life is the life of the reaper and the sower;
my prayers are prayers of earth's own clumsily striving
(finding and losing and laughing and crying)children
whose any sadness or joy is my grief or my gladness
around me surges a miracle of unceasing
birth and glory and death and resurrection:
over my sleeping self float flaming symbols
of hope,and i wake to a perfect patience of mountains
i am a little church(far from the frantic
world with its rapture and anguish)at peace with nature
-i do not worry if longer nights grow longest;
i am not sorry when silence becomes singing
winter by spring,i lift my diminutive spire to
merciful Him Whose only now is forever:
standing erect in the deathless truth of His presence
(welcoming humbly His light and proudly His darkness)
-e.e. cummings
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1 comments:
February 24, 2011 at 3:18 PM
So, I just happened across this today and figured that since it was about me, I should respond.
Yes, I could probably spend more time with you than I do. Yes, I have probably unintentionally brushed you off for Chris. Yes, I am hard to get out of the house. However, I have always been hard to get out of the house. I don't like getting out of the house. I don't like spending money and every time we do something out of the house I feel like I should be the one to pay, and I can't do that. So I opt to stay in my room and do things that don't cost money.
I have offered you my Fridays, but you have been busy. I know that it may not seem like it, but I do not spend all of my time with Chris. I do actually do homework and research and things on my own. I have A LOT of shit going on right now and a lot of things to juggle. I simply do not have the time to just go out.
Yes, I know this may seem self-contradictory because I spend time doing things non-school related or whatever with Chris. But I do that to try to maintain some semblance of a relationship. He and I are the type of people that we are most comfortable when we are together. That's just the way we are. Because I live with you, I feel like we already do everything together even though I know that's not the case.
With all of that being said, I'm sorry that you feel the way you do. I truly am. I don't mean to make you feel unappreciated, because you are appreciated, very much so. I am sorry that I don't know, even now, exactly how to fix it. I know it's not your style, but I need schedules. I plan out my schedule a week in advance, what I'm going to be doing every single day. If you just pop in and want to do something on even a day's notice, it means I have to do some rearranging and to me that's stressful.
I'm also sorry about your birthday. But even though I didn't want to skate, I still had every intention of spending your birthday with you and I'm sorry that I was sick and couldn't be my happy self. Trust me, it's not fun for me either. But I have been sick for almost a solid month now. I simply have no desire to do anything and only go to school and work because I have to.
Basically, I just want you to know that I do love and appreciate you and though I'm not sure how to fix this, I'm sure we will find a way to get some kind of balance.
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