I don't know how. Wouldn't it be perfect that that's what I've been missing all this time? It seems like desperation to me. "Look at me. Love me. I can't live without your approval." I'm sorry but I know the world doesn't revolve around me.
Am I scared? Petrified even. I won't show you though. I don't know how to let anyone in that much. Vulnerability is a feminine trait. Does it make me less desirable because I don't need your validation?
And even now, I can't find the words to express what I feel. I hate this because I'm probably just being selfish anyway.
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Showing posts with label arrrgh. Show all posts
Vulnerable
| Sunday, March 21, 2010 |
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Guess What?!
| Tuesday, February 2, 2010 |
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Chicken butt haha!!
Ok, seriously though. I was pretty productive today. Rescheduled an appointment with my new landlord, added the new class, went to the doctor, ran to the store, had lunch with Victoria, went to the leech's basketball game, oh...and got a job interview with the government. Granted it's only a temporary job with the Census but I'll take it. I think it'll fit in nicely with my statistics hopes. Go me! :D
The doctor appointment went ... horrible I think. He gave me another round of anti-inflammatories and told me to do physical therapy 4 days a week for 4 weeks. He still insists it's just a pulled muscle. If this doesn't work, I'm going to eat him.
I've got a head cold that just won't go away either and I feel like I could sleep for a week. Ugh!!
Ok, seriously though. I was pretty productive today. Rescheduled an appointment with my new landlord, added the new class, went to the doctor, ran to the store, had lunch with Victoria, went to the leech's basketball game, oh...and got a job interview with the government. Granted it's only a temporary job with the Census but I'll take it. I think it'll fit in nicely with my statistics hopes. Go me! :D
The doctor appointment went ... horrible I think. He gave me another round of anti-inflammatories and told me to do physical therapy 4 days a week for 4 weeks. He still insists it's just a pulled muscle. If this doesn't work, I'm going to eat him.
I've got a head cold that just won't go away either and I feel like I could sleep for a week. Ugh!!
Stumbling along the path...but I've got bumpers in the gutter!
I've moved on to the anger phase. I just want to punch something/someone. It would really really really make me feel so much better.
On the bright side...I've been able to channel all this anger energy towards being a study machine for finals next week!
/roar
On the bright side...I've been able to channel all this anger energy towards being a study machine for finals next week!
/roar
Explosion pending.
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
I hate this...omg I hate this soooo much. I'm tired of feeling like I'm your dirty secret when we both know I'm not!!!
I want the option to molest you whenever and where ever I want to damnit. I don't want to have to restrain myself at all when it concerns you.
This is the worst part of being away from you.
I hate it.
ALOT.
I hate this...omg I hate this soooo much. I'm tired of feeling like I'm your dirty secret when we both know I'm not!!!
I want the option to molest you whenever and where ever I want to damnit. I don't want to have to restrain myself at all when it concerns you.
This is the worst part of being away from you.
I hate it.
ALOT.
