Knows or nose?

It's only a canvas sky, hanging over a muslin tree.

But it wouldn't be make believe if you believed in me.

The day is over...it's time to dance.

Convenience

I have this nifty new gadget in my iGoogle homepage that lets me blog on any of my blogs with indescribable easiness.

I may just blog more...maybe? lol.

Later....later...I'm busy now.

Chaos

I'm telling everyone.

I made chaos today.  When I was done I just wanted to curl up in a hole and die because I was so drained, physically and mentally...but damn it's a beautiful thing.  Don't you think so too??

Vulnerable

I don't know how.  Wouldn't it be perfect that that's what I've been missing all this time?  It seems like desperation to me.  "Look at me.  Love me.  I can't live without your approval."  I'm sorry but I know the world doesn't revolve around me.

Am I scared?  Petrified even.  I won't show you though.  I don't know how to let anyone in that much.  Vulnerability is a feminine trait.  Does it make me less desirable because I don't need your validation?

And even now, I can't find the words to express what I feel.  I hate this because I'm probably just being selfish anyway.

Please??

I'm begging...just give me some time to breathe before you pile yet another urgent request on me.  I have things I need to do too ya'know?

Welcome to Denmark, we have hot men!

Just  a couple of pics from my trip.

Me 'n Viktoria at the castle in Hillerod:

Me, Robert, Viktoria, 'n Vincent drunk in the Copenhagen train station:

Robert, Me, 'n Vincent at The Happy Pig:

Pocket full of happiness

 Yup, I have it.  I'm currently in Denmark if you didn't know.  I love it.  The architecture is so simple and amazing in its simplicity.  The people are so easy going and nice...and my friends...are the best.  I'm so glad I was able to do this trip - even though the sex museum was closed lol.

Viktoria, is so full of vitality and fun.  Vincent is so proper at first glance but is such a wonderful guy.  Robert is..everything I've come to know the last 5 years of knowing him.  I feel so comfortable here with them.  There hasn't been the slightest bit of awkwardness or uncomfortableness that I've known before from meeting people that I've met online.  I think it's because I've known them for so long online.  Regardless, these are three friends that will always have a special place in my heart...no matter where life takes us.

There is a bit of ... confusion ... I think, going on inside of me though.  I didn't come here with any expectations of my relationship with Robert other than being wonderful friends...but there have been a couple of moments when he and I have been alone, just talking, and I'll catch myself wanting to kiss him.  It's a bit of a shock...not much, considering our history...but..I really thought I was over that part of it.  I've been able to catch that feeling and let it go though so there's no uncomfortableness or anything.  Plus, I'm not going to do anything about it.  I'm done being the one who makes the first move. 

Everyone is asleep and I'm not tired.  Of course, it's only 8:40pm in the states and in Denmark it's 2:40.  I should go to sleep soon.  Viktoria passed her sickness to Robert and I ... and I'm going to need all the rest I can get to fight it off.  Tomorrow will be nice, we're just going to hang around the house until we take Viktoria to the train station and then go visit 3 more friends that I've met online.  I'm a little nervous about this meeting because while I met them years ago, around the same time I met Robert, I don't really know them.  We'll see.  If it gets weird I've got Vincent to talk to lol.

Think I'm gonna go surf the interwebs for awhile before I fall asleep.  Hope everyone is having a great week.  I'll be home the evening of the 13th.  Try not to miss me.