2/22

Yes, that's the date.  It made me smile all day when I wrote it.  I don't know why, it just did. 

Long day...it's after 11pm and I should go to bed.  I will...after this.  I finally did everything I needed to do for the internships.  Now I'm just waiting on Dr. A to give me his notes on my first draft of the statement of intent so I can polish it up and actually send in the applications for them.

I feel like having another cup of tea...I think I will.  Some chamomile to be exact.  Don't go anywhere, I'll be right back!

Back while it's in the microwave...now, where was I?  Oh ... I haven't done my lab report that's due Thursday...and I have a project due on Friday for numerical linear algebra.  I've started my research for Dr. A.  I'm tabulating the number of pneumonia and influenza deaths in 122 US cities from 1994-the present.  The hardest part is sifting through the thousands of pages to find the singular table for each week of the specific year I need.  I'm supposed to just turn in the data for one year every week...I've done two years this week so far.  Is it bad that I'd rather do this than study?

Speaking of studying...I got a 15% on my differential equations exam last week.  I'm so upset with myself right now.  I guess I can't be too surprised since I pretty much waited until the last minute to study.  I wish I could get out of that habit *sigh*.

I had a blast for my birthday though.  Twenty friends showed up for dinner at Stir Fry Cafe and then about 10 made it to New Beginnings later that night.  I had the best outfit on and got to wear my green plaid mini-skirt finally!  All the drag queens wished me a happy birthday - and by that I mean only one of them did...but she was gorgeous so I'm only counting her as one lol.

Oh wait...gotta go sweeten up my tea...

Ok back..ugh, I have to remember to mail off those bills - can you tell I just saw them?

I guess I really don't have anything else to say now.  I need to take a pill and do my stretches so when my physical therapist asks if I've been doing them I don't have to lie.  It's not my fault!  By the time I finally make it to bed I'm so exhausted I don't want to do anything but curl up under the covers and pass out. 

Okay, okay...I'm going!  G'night my dears.

<3

It's my birthday!

and I'll sleep in, eat sushi, and go to a gay bar just for a drag show if I want to!!!

ps...thank you birthday gods for the sunshine :)

I forgot...*sigh*

So I gave up meat for Lent.  Today's the first day of Lent.  I bought a chicken carbonara sandwich from Quiznos...we're gonna pretend that today is Sunday lol.

Today's Rants:

1. A week full of fail that's only half over *sigh*
2. Classes that are colder than the outside with the falling snow.
3. Having to wear heels for 12 hours today...my poor feet.
4. Getting flirted with by sexy men ... in a friendly way.
5. Not having enough time to spend with my son.
6. Being too tired to study for exams in the morning.
7. Giving up meat for Lent and then forgetting on the first day and eating chicken....

Can I have a redo on this week please?

Today's Happys:

1. Getting to see Victoria randomly two times today!
2. Getting gluten free communion.
3. Evolution Sunday and learning how to embrace my inner fish.
4. Mardi Gras celebration at church.
5. Dancing with my son.
6. Being told that I'm loved in spite of my loud, in-your-face personality because I'm a wonderfully caring and loving person.
7. Realizing that people actually take the time to see the other side of me.
8. Having 2 Drag Queen performances at the gay bar we're going to for my birthday on Saturday!
9. Finding new music.

Fat Tuesday!

Happy fat tuesday everyone.  Tomorrow's Lent...don't forget!

I should be working on homework, but I just need a moment to unwind after a long day.  I went to my new class today.  It was really interested.  Basic statistics with a biological twist to it.  Which is kinda funny, cause Biology and I don't get along lol.  Right after that class I met with Dr. A about starting my research for the Quantitative Biology class.  I've got to give him the yearly totals for pneumonia and influenza deaths in 122 U.S. cities since 1982.  I'll probably start on that tomorrow or Thursday. 

After that I went to physical therapy and while it was painful to start with, I could feel the loosening up of the muscle like I do every time I've been there so far.  Plus, the therapist assistant I got was omg sexy /drool lol.  I may have to bring them food one day as a thank you...but after I'm done, so I have an excuse to see them again ;)

Then I grabbed some sushi and ran to my MAA meeting (that's the mathematical association of america for those of you who don't know).  We discussed having a faculty lecture series this semester.  We're also going to watch the Pi vs E debate.  I'm pretty excited about that.

Then I ran home, dropped my bag, grabbed the leech and we drove up to the church for Mardi Gras!  It was a blast.  They made masks and then we had gumbo.  There was dancing and beads and so much smoke the fire department should have come lol.  The leech had a blast.  We still weren't done by 8:30 so we had to leave early. 

Now he's in bed asleep and I need to start working on my homework and studying for everything tomorrow.  We're pinning our initiates tomorrow so I've got to dress up and wear heels...woo...

I'll be so glad when this week is over.  Pssst...don't forget that Saturday is my birthday!

Tears of Laughter

Today was great.  First of all, I got to sleep in till 12:30pm and then I invited Shante over for pizza and movies.  We watched Son of Rambow.  The movie is utterly amazing.  You need to go see it.  I'm going to own it.  Then we went to Michael's to play D&D for 5 hours. 

I have to say, we have a really great group.  This was our first time playing together and the first time I'd played since high school.  We took about 3 hours to finish up our characters and get started but we managed to play for a solid 2 hours.  My character is a neutral evil rogue....in a party of lawful good paladin, lawful good ranger, and chaotic good rogue  >.>

It was a blast.  There was one point when they were all being attacked by the huge acid shooting ant and I was cutting up a rare flower for its petals to sell in town for money...all the while, laughing at them.  Oh and the lines that were said...Female ranger to male paladin, "Do you have a mount or are we doing this on foot?"; paladin to ranger, "You'll have to ride bareback."; ranger to paladin, "I'm an elf, I won't feel anything."  Said ranger had an asthma attack later from laughing when we explained to her what 'bareback' meant lol.  I can't remember the other good lines...next time I'll have to tweet them so I can remember.

So tomorrow is Evolution Sunday at church and I'm excited.  I'm not exactly sure what it is he'll be preaching on but I know it won't be traditional!

Oh, and I got a random text that was a wrong number...it ended up...weird.  Take a look.

Him: Ok...
Me:  ok?
Him: My bad
Me:  who is this?
Him: Grant
Me: wrong number?
Him:  I think, who are u?
Me: .......seriously?
Him: lol guess not. ill delete u and 4get bout this, g'night pimpin!
Me:  dude...my name is in my sig...you really in ridgway?  ((I reverse looked up his # - with the wrong area code lol))
Him: My name is in my sig also dude! and i dunno wat u talking bout...
Me:  my bad...atlanta
Him: I live bout 45 mims north of atl...
Me:  mhm...so why'd Jeremy give you my number?  ((I have a friend who lives in that area, which is why I assumed this))
Him:  Who the fuck is jeremy? Im trying to find allen.  Not alison or jeremy, thats y i said i 4get this whole thing n erase this wrong#
Me: lol then why are you still talking to me?
Him:  Im not,u keep asking ?s... Dnt flatter urself pimpin
Me:  and yet you keep answering them
Him: Just stfu.. Wow!
Me:  lol... no one's making you talk to me.

Don't you agree with me?

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Big fat quitter!

Wow, look at me, 3 posts today and also above my average monthly posting (aside from last December). Go me!!

So, why am I a big fat quitter? Because I fail...epically today. I have this huge project due tomorrow and I've had 2 weeks to do it. When I started on it, it seemed fairly easy so I kept putting it off till the next day. Well now it's due the next day and I still have 11 super hard programing problems to do!!

It's almost 11pm and what am I doing? Quitting and going to bed. Because of course I'll be able to finish it all tomorrow right? ... right?

Snow day!!

I got to sleep in till 11!!!! :D

After that, Victoria called me and said she wanted to go to Fun Expedition so I got up and showered and we went. It was fun. She and I ganged up on the leech in laser tag. LOL, she was sweating when we were done. Then we grabbed some food and she took me to my physical therapy appointment.

I just got sidetracked...lol. I'm supposed to be working on a project for numerical linear algebra, but decided I wanted to blog instead...and then got caught up on YouTube. I pretty much fail lol.

I forgot whatever I wanted to say. Except that now I'm feeling kinda bleh from the sappy love songs. This one cheered me up tho.

A note from our sponser

So, as I was writing the last post, the university decided to cancel classes for tomorrow.

I'm pretty excited. I think I'll invite people over for dinner...oh, and I'm definitely going to sleep in!

We now return you to your regularly scheduled programing!

PS. New books of the bible: Genesis, Exorcist, Leviathan, and Doooo the Right Thing!

Delicioso!

Today felt like a weekend!

Snow snow everywhere. Blah! The leech's school was canceled, mine wasn't. So I set him up on WoW and braved the weather. Mind you, I was dressed up because our fraternity was pinning our initiates this evening. I got to my first class and while I was there I got an alert on my phone that the university canceled the classes for the rest of the day.

I came home and drove out to the store to pick up some supplies. Remember, I'm trying this whole new vegetarian thing. After grocery shopping I worked on some homework and realized that I could actually take a nap...so I did. It was a beautiful thing. Except that when I woke up, my hip started hurting and it was below zero in my room because I'd forgot to turn up my heater before I laid down lol.

Got up around 6 and went to fix dinner. It was an experience to say the least. Let me warn you, I'm not domestic at all. I'm only in the kitchen long enough to warm something up in the microwave usually. Tonight I actually had to mash avocados and peel the skin off of tomatoes and use 3 herbs! It was a lot of fun actually. And oh my goodness, it turned out delicious! Oh, right...I made bean nachos. I also forgot to take a picture of it for you. I'm sorry. I need to find some .. brioche (I think that's the name of the bread) so I can make this mushroom thing I want to try.

Now here's the pisser of the night. I fixed this gorgeous dinner and the leech freaked out and gagged when he saw it. He said it was from the smell. It smelled like limes to me. I'm not physical with my children at all but I really had to restrain myself from smacking him. I hate it immensely when children are disrespectful...especially mine.

I told him to try it. After all, I'd even bought our favorite (and expensive) organic root beer to drink with it! He took a nibble of a corn chip that didn't have anything on it, and proclaimed that it was nasty. Again, I had to restrain myself. I gave him ample opportunity to eat but he sat there crying crocodile tears until I took the food and his root beer away and told him to just go to bed then.

I have tons leftover for tomorrow. This makes me happy :) Oh, and I also had a root beer float for dessert!

So now, I'm going to tuck him in and then work on some homework before bed. Oh, and I know you were wondering about the history I had to write for Dr. B. I finished it last night and sent it off to him. Now I just need to work with Dr. A on my letter of intent. Hopefully I can get that done this weekend and have everything ready to send off on Monday!

I hope you're enjoying this lazy day as much as I am! :)

Urrrgh!!!

So I've done what I can with my homework for now and decided to work on the paperwork for the summer internship applications. Dr. B wants a brief history of my life so he can write me a letter of recommendation. He gave me a list of things he wants me to send to him so he can get to know me better to write me a glowing recommendation.

No big deal right? Pfft. Says you maybe. I can't remember what I've done!!! I'm having a minor meltdown here. I guess I'll just do what I can and get it to him tonight. Then maybe tomorrow he can tell me if I left anything out.

The deadline is getting closer and I still have to write my letter of intent. *sigh* I've never done this before. I'm worried that as hard as I'm working just to get this application done, something will happen and I won't be able to go...or worse yet, I won't even get accepted.

Back to work!!!!

Just another Tuesday

Today wasn't too bad I think. Had my first Physics exam and I think I did pretty good on it actually. Which basically means I'm sure I didn't fail it lol. Although, the last problem I'm sure I totally screwed up. I just kinda blanked out and forgot how to do it.

I ate lunch with friends, even though I supposed to be using that time to work on homework due this week. Then I went to my physical therapy. The therapist seems to support the doctor's conclusion that it's a severe muscle spasm so that's a good thing. I got a 15 minute electrical massage with heat and then he showed me 3 stretches he wants me to do twice a day. I go back on Thursday. Oh, and the spasm is so low that he got to feel up my butt while putting the electrodes on and taking them off lol.

Then I went and did some homework while waiting on 4pm for the math club meeting. At 5 til I went to find out what room it was in, only to find out that it's next week not today. So I went home.

Now I'm just relaxing and getting ready to fix dinner before I finish up on my homework. I really need to work on the applications for the internship....and get that information to Dr. B so he can write my recommendation.

I wonder if I'll get a chance to read for a bit before bed tonight?

I wonder

I should be studying for my Differential Equations quiz in 2 hours. I will...I just need to get this out.

This morning as I was leaving for class I looked down at my task bar and saw that Eric had logged out of Yahoo. My heart momentarily stopped and I was filled with conflicting emotions. First of all, that I had logged onto Yahoo and not noticed he was on is a huge deal. I can remember the days when that was the first thing I looked for and how disappointed I would be if he wasn't there. Secondly, I was a little upset and hurt that he saw me log on but didn't say anything.

So I spent the whole day with him on my mind. Not something I wanted to do, I promise. A part of me wanted to rush home and wait and see if he'd log back on like I used to do. The new me recognized these feelings and let them go. I'm not waiting around for anyone anymore. Especially someone who has made it very clear that they don't want to be with me.

This is me living my life and not desperately chasing after someone who may or may not want to talk to me. If you want me, you've got to come get me damnit.

Now I'm off to study.

Again!?

Yes, there's a change. I like it better. Too bad if you don't >.>

Dinner time...yes I'm making broth. I really want more pasta. Ooooh, I can finish my salad from lunch!!!

*bites nails* Almost Superbowl time!!!

no, I didn't get any studying done... shut up ^.^

The Beginning

So how am I doing on day one? Miserable lol. I had a couple pieces of fruit for breakfast and realized I wouldn't make it through church with that little bit on my stomach so I ate some egg substitute. After church Victoria said she wanted to go out to eat and I agreed (I succumb easily to peer pressure...). We ate at Fatz. I had some pasta with chicken. I didn't eat it all but the leftovers are in the fridge for later.

The only good thing about today is that I did manage to write down everything I've eaten in my new little journal. I'll spare you the details. The rest of the day will be broth. I promise! I also updated the sidebar so that's good too right?

I got my hair permed yesterday...I love it. I can't wait till I can wash it on Tuesday because then I'll be able to start doing pretty things with it. I've missed my hair accessories so much!

Anywho, I need to get some studying done before the superbowl tonight. Go Saints!

Who Dat?!

The Journey

So here's something new. I'm going to purge my body of all the junk. The idea is sound, but I doubt I have the willpower.

Here's the plan. Sunday through Tuesday I'll eat broth and extremely light soups (if I get too weak) and then Wednesday through Saturday I'll reintroduce food into my system by way of vegetarianism. I've bought cookbooks. I've bought a small journal to keep with me so that I can record my thoughts/feelings and weight through all of this. I'm making plans to blog about it (notice the new section on the right here titled "The Journey").

The problem? I'm famous for great ideas that I never follow through on. Plus, I love love love eating food that's bad for me. I live outside my body. When I pass a mirror and see myself, it shocks me because that's not who I picture myself to be. It's not just the weight, it's other things like my facial structure and how I smile. I don't think I'm ugly or look bad...it's just a shock to see myself through someone else's eyes.

Maybe I can start being healthy now? I'm starting this Sunday. During our meditation time at church, I'm going to pray about it. Try and get a clearer picture of how this will work. I feel like there's a big change for me just over the horizon, I just need a push.

Anyway, I know there's only 2 people who read this, but it's always good to get a plan of action down and have someone holding you accountable ... right?

Guess What?!

Chicken butt haha!!

Ok, seriously though. I was pretty productive today. Rescheduled an appointment with my new landlord, added the new class, went to the doctor, ran to the store, had lunch with Victoria, went to the leech's basketball game, oh...and got a job interview with the government. Granted it's only a temporary job with the Census but I'll take it. I think it'll fit in nicely with my statistics hopes. Go me! :D

The doctor appointment went ... horrible I think. He gave me another round of anti-inflammatories and told me to do physical therapy 4 days a week for 4 weeks. He still insists it's just a pulled muscle. If this doesn't work, I'm going to eat him.

I've got a head cold that just won't go away either and I feel like I could sleep for a week. Ugh!!

Nerves

I'm sitting here and it's almost 8pm on a Monday. A lot's happened to me I guess.

My back has been killing me. I think I mentioned about 3 months ago that I finally went in to get it checked out? 3 months that included muscle relaxers, a hormone, and anti-inflammatories later...and my back still feels the same way. I'm worried about Scolosis. I'm worried about a lot of other things too. I'm going in tomorrow morning to see the doctor again and this time I'm not going to let them put me on any medication without running tests so I know what's wrong. I'm a little nervous because as outspoken as I am...I usually just smile and nod while at the doctor. I don't know why...I just do.

I'm thinking about my undergraduate research that I have to do next semester. Finally realized that I want to get my master's in statistics so I need some undergrad stuff that flows into a master's thesis. Had a nice talk with Dr. A today and he wants me to add one of his classes - yes I know it's a month into the semester already. Yes I know I already have 14 credit hours not counting the Graph Theory class that I'm sitting in on without getting a grade.

I've been assured that this class will prepare me to do research with him next semester. Also, we only meet for 4 weeks and it should be a fairly easy A. Lord knows I can use as many of those as I can get. So I go tomorrow to submit a late add form for this class.

Dr. A's also informed me that I need to do an internship this summer in biostatistics. I have to say it sounds positively amazing and I would love to be able to do something like this. There's just a few things I'm worried about. They want a copy of my transcript...I've got a few grades that aren't so hot. Granted I've retaken all of my math classes that I needed to and significantly raised those grades (from an F to a B+) but it still makes me nervous. I also need 2 letters of recommendation. I know Dr. B will give me one, but I don't know any other teacher well enough to ask. Maybe I'll ask Dr. F if he'd mind. I know he likes me.

Also, I have to make sure I don't lose my campus housing while I'm gone and I need to find somewhere to stick my son for 6-7 weeks.

If all of the above work out, I could either be in Boston, Atlanta, S. Florida, Pittsburgh, Washington, or North Carolina. I'm really cautiously excited about this.

I need to finish my statistics homework now and put the leech to bed. G'night all.